WAW - Very confused and devestated - pt 5

[confusedinpa]

Theroadback,

I hope you're right. It had really rattled me, but I tried to stay calm/buisness like - good thing I spend so much time negotiating as part of my job.

It was an awkward morning as we chatted lightly but she wouldn't make eye contact. I still felt pretty upbeat/positive so I acted as if it was any other morning. I did move towards her to give her a hug good bye, but I got a cue that she didn't want one. Fortunately my youngest was right next to her so I gave it to him instead!

I had a busy day at work this morning. She wound up sending me an email with a joke (seems like she emails/text me almost everyday - I do not initiate, I let her send the first one). I usually only wait between 15 to 60 minutes to respond, but since I was tied up, I responded about 3.5 hours later. She responded back right away. Don't understand nor am I trying to.

I go to my therapy appointment later today and will be going out with my buddies for beer and wings this evening. I know it will be a good time.

I'm still debating whether to visit my friends up in Conn. I would like to bring my kids. I was planning on bringing it up to her that she had said she wanted a few days to think by herself so I was doing that to help. I think she will be afraid if I take the kids I won't come back with them (crazy thinking).

She actually just called to set up a time for us to go to the seminar of children and divorce. We have it April 20th. I didn't react emotionally, I just treated it as another business meeting I was trying to schedule.

So the train now has another stop.....

I really don't see any chance/hope with saving this marriage as she's hell bent on moving forward.

I do think a separation will help at that point, I need to figure out how to press it without totally alienating her.