Hi! Monday I told him I needed a break and to pick out S and bring him back to me at 8:15. He did. We chit-chatted while S was taking his bath--one of my favorite times with S. H gave me a weird hug/squeeze. I was sitting and he was standing so my face was in his stomach/chest. I patted him but not with much affection. He then left and said something I can't quite remember and I looked at him and said "It is going to be ok, I'm already ok H." He smiled and said good, in a sincere manner. Yesterday, I picked S up and took him to a kid place in town. As I was on my way H called, first contact of the day. I didn't answer. I called back about 10 mins later. And said Hi. He said "What's up?" I reminded him that he called me and he said "Yup, what's up? What's the plan?" The plan had not changed but I told him I was on my way and he'd said he be there shortly. He got there about 20 mins after us (he was coming from across town). We chit-chatted again and I left after about 4 or 5 mins. He seemed surprised, because Tuesdays are supposed to be family night. But I really needed the break. I had on a new dress and he commented about it looking nice. I went and got gas, played tennis with a girlfriend, ate dinner with her and got home a few minutes after H and S. I went and took a shower. While in the shower, H came up to talk to me. He asked me more about what is going on with my job. (I have a job offer on the table right now BUT not in writing. My potentially new boss promised me I could give notice and start the process so I can start sooner. I told him "No way. I need it in writing." He understood and I will have it this Thursday. In the meantime, my current boss has asked me "Do you REALLY want to leave....No.....then stay......can't laugh at the raise they are offering me.....Alright, then I'll counter offer......" I'm still waiting on the counter offer.) I feel like H is a little too interested in my potential raise. I've told him, I'm going to pay off my debts first and MAYBE will pay more into the joint debt, but I'm not really feeling any obligation to do that. So that is a concern of mine...what if he's being nice because he wants to part take in my raise? I truly hope not. But, we talked a bit about that and not much else. He said "Alright, I'm tired so I'm going to get out of here." And as he started to say that, I started to walk into my room, and he walked out the other door. I said "Good night. You pick up S tomorrow." He said "I got him, no problem." And we said bye. No physcial contact this time. No contact today either. I am the bill/money organizer. I'm in charge of the finaces now. Since I've taken over, things have gotten better. But I tell him, via email, what bills to pay and for what amount. Since Friday of last week, I've been educating myself on how to pay the bills on-line, which ones are mailed, etc. So I won't have to contact him to get that done anymore. But like LonelyRzr, today I feel blah. I feel like I've done pretty well, but I still feel blah.
