Now that I have several careers going and GAL, I do feel good about myself. I now look at my life and see that I CAN be happy without H. I can manage just fine without him. My perspective on things have changed from one year ago (last bomb). Really, I would love it if he came back and we worked on the M together. But if he doesn't I know that I can have a really nice and happy life without him. So I have two choices, good and good. Well, what's to be unhappy about then??
Recently, you haven't written much about your W. Is it because you have not had much contact? But how are you feeling about everything? Are you very busy and therefore not wasting braincells on every minute detail of your interactions? Or is it that you are keeping things closer to your chest for right now?
Thanks again for sharing your DB Coach sessions. It really solidifies what we are doing here and helps a lot. I know we try not to get our hopes up but DB Coach has a point. Keep your eyes open and just watch her reactions as you would a science experiment, i.e. without feelings about it either way. Make notes in a journal so you can track what works and what doesn't work. Maybe you will see a pattern emerging.
You are certainly sounding happier nowadays. Is this a genuine emotion or are you still feeling down a lot of the time? Please share.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09