Yeah, chick wish u could have met me there too...lots of hotties! Met one---he was 25! Jinkies!

Liss, you are right about those people...they have NOT seen how much I have grown and how much I pray about decisions. SIgh...I am so loved and here I am complaining about it. How selfish I am. They just don't want to see my heart hurt again.

Thanks you for thinking I handled that with dignity and grace...I did try to do that...sigh...and you are right...they mainly DID see the woman who had it together...they really did not have to listen to me cry like you and Always and Baseball Annie did...they do not know the details...

Even now, my divorce is imminent...next week I think. And I am feeling sad about it. I mean, I am glad in many ways but I am also sad...I am sure you know what I mean. Right now I feel like I am trapped in a vortex of emotion...and I cannot get out...I just have to ride it out...it is exhausting...and I am doing my best to keep busy...with friends, with church...with meditation (although I have not done enough of that lately).

There is so much pain associated with this...

Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller