That's the problem right there. You continue to honor and cherish her which shouldn't be your concern right now. Because she doesn't want you. And I don't know how many times and how many different ways she's told you that, but you won't let go not even a little.
Do we all want to get back with our Ws? Of course. But one thing about DBing is that you work on yourself first before you work on your M. With the exception of your studying long distance, you haven't shown us how you've changed. You are the same person that left Texas. You still cling on to her every word and jump when she commands you to.
Work on yourself Kevin. You said you understood why she likes the OM. Well be better than him. Grow as a person and an individual. It's obvious she wants you to grow a pair and stand up to her. To stand up for you rights.
Hopefully this separation will lead you to that, but you've got to start it.
C'mon Kevin work on yourself. You can do it.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
