Well tonight was mixed. She did invite me home for dinner which I accepted. I got home and she was in the bathroom talking to her sister. My SIL told me Sunday that she watched Fireproof and asked if I had seen it and I told her yes and that I thought it was really good but wasn't sure if W would watch it with me or even if it was good to do right now. Anyway, I overheard W asking questions about movie when I walked in and I know SIL was asking her to watch it with me. Kids attacked me and wanted me to come outside to put on a dance for me that they had been practicing. So I went outside and watch their performance and then W started getting dinner ready. I went in and asked if I could help and everything was light and easy.
Then she said that she needed to ask me something but didn't want to make me mad. I said you can ask me anything and she said well maybe not mad but hurt your feelings. I said to just tell me and she said that she really wanted to go out and shop instead of hanging with us because she had been with the kids since Friday and needed a break. I was disappointed inside, but I totally understand where she was coming from and went over to her and touched her shoulder and told her that it was ok that she went out and I understand where she needed a break and take all the time she needed. The kids and I would have a great time. Also told her that she doesn't need to worry about hurting my feelings or whatever and that I will be just fine. Hopefully I handled that right and we went on to have a good dinner and then watched the kids do a couple of more dances for us.
She left and kids and I rode bikes, played bball, went to get smoothies and watched AI before bed. W got home and was nice but still a little distant. I put D to bed and then went down to kiss S goodnight and told W bye and I had fun with them tonight and would do again soon.
I guess I wanted to do something more as a family tonight but I understand she needed a break and was more than willing to accommodate that. I know I need to take it slow and will do so, but sometimes I get anxious. But no harm done tonight, I was nice, calm, loving and thats all I can be.
