After a while I told him I was feeling a little overwhelmed, just because I hadn't talked to anyone about what was going on in my head about my future that much, and I told him I wanted to talk to him more about it, but maybe at a later time when I felt less overwhelmed. Then he asked me if he could tell me something good that happened to his best friend, and then told me how his best friend just got into a super prestigious grad program (in Texas--sad for B, b/c it's so far away from NYC) and also pulled his GRE score up a TON just studying by himself. We talked about that for a little bit and then got off the phone. I purposely didn't say anything about future contact and then he said, "Let's talk again soon," and I said, "That sounds great," And he said, "Call me," and I said, "Sounds like a plan" or something like that.
The whole phonecall was over 90 minutes long..?? It felt so good. It felt really, really intimate. The way things felt when we were together and things were good.
So, I think the ball is in my court to call him back. I was planning to call him this past weekend (about a week after he called me) but I was in a totally foul mood and didn't want to call him when I felt depressed. So I'm thinking maybe thursday after yoga class... I'm usually in a pretty good place. I want to get his opinion about the school I auditioned for, and just continue the discussion from before.
Otherwise, I should find out from the school any day now.
Aside from the excellent contact with B and getting to hang out with my outoftown friend and trying to workout or do yoga ever day, I have been feeling pretty depressed. I think I just need to practice and get out of my house and have social interaction. But I have also started to feel mega stressed about my financial situation, which is a whole different story.
ANYWAY... wow I thought that would be really brief but it was not.
Thanks to anyone who has read this-- And thank you for checking up on me. I wanted to write sooner.
