Praying and Living

[Holly06]

Hi all,,
just a quick post on my sitch..

I am fine, living an easy life with no complications. I am a D woman, and I am quietly standing for my marriage.

I have not seen X is about a year. I have not spoken to him directly in as long. We have exchanged a few emails, all initiated by him. I believe he is still with OW, but I am not sure. He was with her over the holidays, but I have not heard anything.

At least until yesterday.
On Sunday I had a bad day. It started with a moment that I had an overwhelming feeling that something was wrong. It was a real connection, and I felt it had to do with TJ. I did nothing about it, but it lasted most of the day. It was just a nagging concern. I have never had this before.
So Monday am on my way to school, I thought about and then text TJ's sister. She is safe, and understands alot about MLC and depression.
I told her that I did not need a reply, but I had an overwhelming feeling that something was wrong with TJ. I was asking her to check on him, especially spiritually. I would rest easier knowing that someone who loves him would check on him.
She did reply.
She told me it was funny that I had those feelings, because she believes TJ is near the bottom. He came to town and went to church with her family and they had a good talk.
SHe also ask me is I still love him, and if I had communicated that to him.
I told her that I was praying like he is coming home, and living like he is not.(her advice to me)
I also told her that the bottom was somewhere in his future, but not as soon as we might think. I have not talked to or seen TJ in about a year, and I have not told him. I also said that it was God's place to move TJ to contact me.

She thought that was a good point.


So if I am to analyze this, I would thank God for the glimpse at where he is, but have to get back to living my life.

I am hoping that Snodderly stops by and gives her insight.