WAW - Very confused and devestated - pt 5

[confusedinpa]

Well I text her back what I planned and she responded right away with a text

"I will let u know for sure as soon as i know"

Guess I'm back in limbo even relative to what she's doing tonite.

I do feel good about my changes and how far I've "evolved". It frustrates me that I'm still on the divorce train, but I know that not my decision.

I know one of her issues in the past had been my "rigid" approach and/or inflexibility to sudden changes in the schedule - especially when it comes something that will be divergent from my "perfect" four member family unit being together. As I had mentioned in counseling last nite, I see now that was an unhealthy paradigm that restricted our freedoms of being/functioning as individuals. Perhaps this is a test, who knows.

I'm going to plan, as my 3 year old likes to call it a boys nite, if she doesnt go out tonite, she'll be welcome to come along. If not, I'm going to make sure our "boys nite" is fun.