AJM, I do think I love you. I feel so much better and ready for this battle after your posts, as well as some others, but your post read......calmly....I don't know if that makes any sense or not, but I feel calm with you. I am keep a journal and YES, he is a great dad. I'm going to see my C right now and will get back on here after I create a list of some things I need to work on and some goals I have, mostly for me, but a few for my family too. I'm so glad I found you. I hope your wife realizes what you are.....amazing and kind.