H has come over to pick up our doggy, just I thought he would. He was very calm, very normal. His madness of the last days has gone. He told me that his love for me is gone for real, he needs and wants to be with OW. He will file ASAP.
We had a nice (under the circumstances)talk, very warm and friendly and sad.
I cried a little bit when we said good bye and hugged. I don't have hard feelings and I forgive him. There is nothing he can do about not loving me anymore. He tried to set things right, it just didn't work. After all, he knows better whom he needs in his life.
I am very sad and feel very lonely but I'm ready to start healing.
I also feel like saying good bye - again. I will not post for a while, there is nothing I can say to others, not right now, may be later I will be able to return to offer my help. At the moment I feel like a failure.
I hope it will pass.
Good luck to all of you, I love you, thanks for always being here for me.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
