WAW

[markhaving probs]

I feel very low this morning. I am condemplating taking all the tablets I have and just ending it all. I know it is the most selfish thing to do but particularly because of the children, but I cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel. I was told yesterday my job was ending next week, this is on top of my marriage failing, moving away from home and not seeing my children every day.

I thought by me staying at the house might give me a chance to use DR, GAL, LRT and anything/everything to help me bring my wife back to me. NOTHING has worked, she has not wavered since she told me it was all over on December 19th 2008. She even stated this morning that us being in the same house is becoming "harder and harder". I have pushed my wife further away, I have no doubt about that and I am at my wits end. I have run out of strategies, ideas and tactics to get her back. She is totally resolved to get her divorce.

I did go home last night with Can It Work's 'man up' strategy and I told her I would be sleeping in the marital bed tonight. After a bit of nominal moaning she went in to my son's bedroom. I also tried to be a bit more masculine without upsetting the mood, but the atmosphere in the house is strained. I think she is so far removed from me that she does not care what I do or say anymore. she rang me this morning to say there was a problem with the heating which I said I would deal with later, I also sent her a text validating all her parents support over the years which I recognise I have taken for granted. I said it was a shame I now realise everything that I should have done and its all to late. She responded by saying 'yes' is all too late.

I am at the lowest point I can be now.