Today is my anniversary...and I just now remembered it.
For so long I have dreaded this day, thinking it would be by far the hardest day...but somehow it just passed me by. I almost missed it completely for the first time ever. I always loved anniversary day. I loved the ordering of roses in her favorite colors and dinner at "our" restaurant. I loved the idea that we had successfully made it another year, another notch in the belt and a testament to our success.
Some success.
I thought (very briefly) of sending WAW a "happy anniversary" text...but I didn't. What would it serve? She hasn't spoken 10 words to me in 6 months, I doubt she even remembers.
Here is a coincidence...today she finally moved out of her parents' house and into her own apartment. On our anniversary. Nice huh? I told TxMom, I would like to think she is lying in her tiny new apt sadly reflecting on where she went wrong, but the more likely scenario is that she and OM are "breaking in" her new spot since mom and dad cramped her style for so long. /Vomit.
I think I have decided that the hardest part of all this wasn't the cheating or the lying...it was the ease with which she just tossed me and our family aside. Never hesitating. Never looking back. No warning, no "working on us", just...POOF!
Gone.
H: 38 W: 36 S: 8 S: 5 M: 16 Bomb: 8/25/08 OM: 9/21/08 EA (Possible PA) with co-worker since 5/08 (at least...) Sep: 9/21/08 D Filed 9/23/08 My Situation
