It is here now. The anger left me about 2 hours ago. I've been in my office and feeling VERY VERY lonely. There is nobody around me, no peep from the W. I keep getting images of her with OM and it hurts me so badly. I try to switch to PMA, but then return to this bad place. I'm glad no one is around right now. I have been crying really hard off and on for the last hour. I keep getting waves of emotions overcoming me.
I hate this...this is payback for making her miserable our whole marriage I guess, I'm sure that's what she would say. I still don't know how we managed to get here, to this nasty place. I thought things between us were better than this. I don't want to ever open my heart to another woman, especially this one - my cherished W. I would rather have an ice cold stone in my chest than ever take a chance of experiencing this again.
Me: 33 W: 26 Married: 5 yrs in July T: 8.5 yrs Kids: 0 Bomb: 2/4/09 D Filed (by her): 2/28/09
