Beyond Surviving- Living Life Again

[Loving_Life]

So, my final D hearing is scheduled for 1- 1/2 wks from today. Fortunately, I was able to talk to stbx and he dropped the maintenance request and is no longer arguing about anything. We are each to review and sign the final settlement and this should be it. Stbx wants to maintain our 'friendship'. Well, don't know that we're really 'friends', but things could be worse so I'm counting my blessings. Still looking for a job and staying with family. I hope something comes through for me soon. I've spent several months now in the job market in my new city. Have had interviews and gotten close, so close.... I've never had a test of faith this monumental before. I know I must keep continuing and continuing but keeping the faith is up and down to say the least . I keep breaking down and thinking is this all a joke? Is there any hope? Why did I have to lose everything and try to start from scratch. Not like I need to be going through the stress of finding a job, going through a D and living with relatives and not having my own place all at the same time - then somehow I find a reason pick myself back up.