Stress, WAW and life in general II

[AJM]

Thanks. I'm not fooling myself though. I realize the risks invovled and I realize that we're so far from anything that it would be problematic for me to get my hopes up.

That and I'm tired.

I also realize she's so far away from healing. It's just like her to be in a hurry The advice I've gotten today is to go at her pace. Ok.

She's interesting though. Very cautious. I can understand. She's been hurt. Feelings are raw. Advice from 25 year olds rattling in her head. Guys trying to poach her away from me. Me talking to other women. The things that have been said. Her imagination at what I must be feeling.

All of that is BS. I'm fine. I am sad for her. I see the hurt. I see her trying not to face it. I realize I don't know what she's thinking or feeling. I don't.

I'm taking this one day at a time.

Tomorrow's not written yet. Yesterday's gone. Today is all I have that I can count on.

I am determined, but cautiously waiting. I am not axious to get back on the roller-coaster. I am intersted in rebuilding if possible. We'll have to see....but until then, I suspect it will be business as usual. We'll see, right?

AJ