I'm here........

[SueS]

Hi everyone-

Well, it was a nice, fun weekend. Now back to reality!

I relaxed, did some shopping, went out with friends. I went out with 2 co-workers on Saturday night. We went to this great dive bar. We started talking to 2 really great local guys and we all ended up hanging out the whole night. I started talking to one of them and he ended up being the nicest guy. He's a few years younger than myself, but has a 6 year old daughter. I tried to move things toward the fact that I'm married with a child, but turns out we have a ton in common, including bad relationships. Nothing happened, but it was so incredibly nice to have someone pay attention to me, to want to talk to me. At the end of the evening, he told me that he understood my situation and that he couldn't cross or push me to cross any lines. However, he smiled and told me that he's in the phone book if things don't work out. It made my eyes open to see that there could be a life for me if things don't work out.

So, H came home last night. I didn't expect him until sometime today, but he told me yesterday that he'd be taking off early from his dad's and coming home. He also called me several times while he was gone. That I did not expect at all. The way things have been and as cold as he'd become, I honestly expected him to take total advantage of the time away and not talk to me at all. He called me at 2:30 Sat. morning. He asked if I had fun, which I said I did. He started pushing me asking if anyone had hit on me or bought me drinks. I was honest and said yes. He got a little short and asked if anyone had tried to take me home. I told him that it wasn't a line that I was going to cross, that I'm still married and still trying to make things work for my family. He didn't say much after that.

I talked to a co-worker today and I think the two of us are going to join a running class. It's only 6 weeks, but I'd like to be able to do it with someone instead of pushing myself alone and hating it before I even really get started. It doesn't start until April, so we'll see how things go.

D4 is still with my parents and having a great time. My mom rented a room at a hotel with a pool and they're going to be there tomorrow. My nieces and some other friends will be joining them. I miss her. She told me last night that she misses me too but that she's okay. Made me smile. The other night I sent her a link to "In My Daughter's Eyes" so my mom could play it for her. I got a call a few minutes later and she was yelling into the phone.....Mom, that's our song....Thank you mommy.....You're the best mom ever!! Oh, she's my love!

Well, time to get back to work. Just a bit longer left and then it's on homeward.

Take care everyone!