Just venting a little. I'm getting sick, (D14 had it last week, she shared with me) & I want to just vent & dump.
Through talking with a friend, I realize just how much I've always done around here.
I have cut H's hair for the past 15 years, every 5-6 weeks I drop off & pick up H's dry cleaning I do all the banking errands I go to the post office to retrieve packages I buy all of H's clothes, if they don't fit, I return them & get a different size I even bought his last truck. He didn't feel like going car shopping & his car was on it's last tire with a broken head gasket.
I have always bought all of the kids clothes & shoes I cut the boys hair I take D to the hair dresser for a trim I rotate all the clothing in the closets for season & size & hand me downs I keep track of & purchase all personal hygiene items for everyone in the family
I take the kids to all their dentist & doctor appointments. I stay with them for in-patient & out-patient surgeries. I slept on the couch in D's room for 6 nights when she was hospitalized. H would come visit for 30-60 minutes, & usually be on the phone with clients. Once home, I was her private nurse for 10 days, every 4 hours around the clock administering antibiotics, & flushing & draining her abdomen. (ruptured appendix)
I drove them to all their practices, recitals, rehearsals, & performances. H would come to the performances.
I plan all the meals I buy all the groceries I prepare all the food I do any & all baking I clean out the fridge & rotate the food I do a majority of the dishes I do all the house cleaning; except for kids bedrooms now I did all of H's, & the kids laundry. S18 & D14 now do their own, as does H. I wash all the towels, sheets, blankets, rugs & throws I drove the cars to the repair shop & walked home 2 miles pushing a stroller with 2 kids & a toddler walking by me, when they were younger. Because I had so much more time than H. Of course I couldn't okay a repair until I had cleared it with H. LMAO
I cleaned the garage. I trimmed the trees & shrubs. I picked the fruit off of the trees, & made apricot jam for years. I even mowed our lawn for years & years. I planted, rotated, harvested & weeded the garden. He ate the vegetables. I maintained the sprinkler system, making sure we weren't guilty of wasting water, & only watering on our assigned days for the allowed times.
Now I test the pool chemicals. Add acid or salt, & clean the filters. I also maintain the water softener. Buying & adding salt as needed.
I buy & replace the air filters for the air conditioner. I buy & replace the batteries in the smoke alarms.
I maintain the A/C & heater, setting the times, temperatures, & conserving energy wherever possible.
I used to set the DVR to record his favorite shows.
I buy all the gifts for birthdays, Christmas & all gifts for friends & relatives. I wrap them. I mail them. I buy cards for H to send to his parents on mother's day, father's day & their birthdays.
I'm really beginning to wonder what the hell he ever did around here, besides go off to work (which he'd rather do than interact with us) sit in his recliner, watch TV & wait to be served by me.
No wonder the man doesn't want a divorce.
He needs a mother, not a wife.
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
