I'm not a princess/This ain't a fairytale

[AFWAW]

All right Mel, I'm right there with you today--too freaking emotional and cannot stay calm for the life of me. I fear that something like this may happen one day and I just won't care. I agree with you, if they want the divorce then do the paperwork. My wife has yet to make a move regarding this. I have a meeting w/ a lawyer this coming thursday and am frankly scared out of my mind. To be quite frank, I'm scared about a lot of things. I was fine this morning but for the life of me cannot calm down. How do you make yourself calm down and not think about this? It is difficult and if you find the answer, please let me know. On top of everything else, I am so freaking lonely I cannot stand it.

I think you are being too nice. Take him what he needs and stay for 20 minute and leave! And yes, let him suffer--he deserves it, you don't!