I recognize that thought process. I recognize it as you beginning to turn a corner and heal thyself. It's early yet, but I see it in your thoughts and writings.

I think that's scary and good at the same time. You need to do it. You need to recognize that you can only control you and your thoughts and that he'll have to be responsible for himself and his actions.

It's not going to stay this way. You know that.

Don't lose sight of your love for him, but enjoy the time in your thoughts and with the weight loss and with doing things for you. You'll feel better about yourself which is a good thing. Be healthy about it though!

I sense that you are truly detaching. Scary. But healthy and necessary. Your confidence is already better \:\)

Oh. Don't forget to take before and after pictures. You might want to be on TV or something...

AJ

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK
Put the glass down...
"Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."