Getting ready to go pick up s8 at friends house. We are going to try to do something fun today since we're on spring break.
Tommorrow is looming large in my mind. Those of you that have been through doing the D papers, advice?
Even though I don't like this man my H has become, it still hurts.
Got to train myself not to cry. I always end up crying even though I try so hard not to.
Like some others, I feel like I am failing my kids. I know that I have tried, and can't do it alone. S8 asked me one day not too long ago if daddy and I were getting "better" yet. I had to be honest with him and tell him that I had tried, and was trying, but it takes two people to try. All he said was "I know." Broke my heart. S does not know about OW (not an affair,whatever). H was only stupid enough to take the little one around her. Even the little one knew it was not right and was bothered. I dread the day H takes S around her. He has no idea what the backlash will be. As he doesn't seem to be able to think with his brain these days, I don't even think he has acknowledged the feelings this will put between him and S.
Think about the papers makes me ill. I don't want to pass my kids back and forth like they are some type of object to split between us. I want them to have a family.
"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out." Robert Collier
"One's best success often comes after their greatest disappointments." Henry Ward Beecher
