Seven years ago today my wife and I were standing at the alter saying our "I do's." I still have not forgotten my promises on that day.
I haven't had to much to report lately. I have been letting her do all the contacting. On Wednesday I have an appointment with my lawyer to respond to her agreement.
She is gone for a week right now for work. She called Friday before she left to leave me a message regarding what is going on. Her parents dropped the kids off on Saturday. They really didn't say a whole lot. It was friendly but I could tell they were a little uncomfortable.
My wife called Sunday morning while my Father was over visiting the kids. I didn't want to answer it while he was there so I let it go. The weather was beautiful, the kids and I had plans to have dinner with my grandfather later in the day. It was just to nice of a day to sit at home until then, so we headed out. We played outside for a while then went shopping before we went to dinner.
My wife called the house three times while we were out and finally called my cell just before dinner. She asked where we were and sounded a bit surprised when I told her. She spoke to the kids for a minute and then me. She wanted to again make sure that we would be home on Tuesday for her next phone call. The conversation was nice but short, I told her we would be there.
It's funny how she has her call times all planned and how important it is for us to be around. She told me to call if there was an emergency and that she would talk to me on Tuesday.
The kids and I have been having fun. They have been behaiving great. I have let a few other things that are happening right now get me down. Things I really need to step away from. I am not in a position right now to do anything about it so I'm trying to keep that in check.
I am also coming to grips with just how long this may take or if anything will change at all. Right now I am moving forward as if she is never coming back. I'm not saying that I have lost hope. There really isn't anything else for me to do at the moment. I plan on letting her do all the contacting. I will be friendly but firm when I have to be. She needs to make a step in the right direction and she needs to do it all on her own.
I have no desire to be with anyone else right now nor am I even close to being ready for anything like that. I'm taking it a day at a time and trying not to lose sight of what is really going on with her. There has been way too many things that have happend over the past two years to make me believe that this is really her and that she is now happier living her life this way. Nobody who is truly happy acts this way. I know better.
So for now it's on with life. One day at a time. Enough with the how long should I wait. The answer for now will be another day.
