Maybe I should be in piecing part 7?

[Hope4us]

Thanks Kat, Sara.

The frying pan just missed Kat. Maybe if it would have connected it would have been better. At least I could have handled the stun from it a little better than I'm handling the stun from Saturday's conversation.

I'm assuming the feelings I'm having are normal. Sunday morning I was doing pretty good and was excited because we finally talked. Later in the afternoon and evening it started hitting me. The emotions and the pain of some of the things she said had went on are pretty darn tough to deal with.

Other things are not that difficult as a lot of it I already knew in my heart/mind was the case.

But some of the revelations are tough to deal with. Her knowing that OM had had numerous A's prior to it going PA the first time is tough to handle. Hearing that she knew where it was headed and chose to go there anyway is tough to handle. Hearing that she was attracted to him very early on and let it go on anyway is tough to handle. Hearing that she knew where it was going and just didn't think about the consequences and chose to do it anyway is tough to handle.

Just dealing with a lot of emotions right now. It's like the most massive trigger I've ever experienced. Almost like D-Day all over again.

I'm assuming it's normal to feel these things. I'm assuming it's all part of the process we have to go through to put it behind us, but right now I'm really struggling.

Hope there's someone out there that has been through this that can tell me it gets better. I think it will, but right now I can't stand the sight of her.