Just keep swimming...PH #5

[pearlharbr]

Well, here's what happened. I put on a new outfit, did my nails and left the polish out so he would know I did my nails. Went over to the sports bar for dinner, it was dead. That's fine, I ate, chatted with the manager who likes me, and read the paper. After two hours I decided it was ok to go home. Manager said he wanted me to come back so he paid my bill for me. "And yes, I am flirting with you." LOL!

Got back to a cold house. Note from xBF: something is wrong with the pilot light. It was relit but went out again and he couldn't get it to relight. Need to call furnace repair tomorrow. So I tried to find the paperwork for the last time we had it serviced, last year when we bought the house. Can't find the receipt, also can't find any paperwork relating to the purchase of the house.

So I called xBF to see if he had it. He has the house paperwork "for taxes" but nothing on the furnace. I said thanks and hung up.

That was the first time we've spoken since freedom day.

Back to the emotional stuff...

Again I came homem and was disappointed and sad that he didn't take the opportunity to leave me flowers or something else, didn't wait for me to come back. I guess I just thought he would have done something by now. I'm sad and angry that he came back into my life, made me pause, and now nothing. He's just jerking me around yet again and I'm tired of it.

I just want to shake him or slap him and ask him what his problem is. If he wants a second chance then he should man up and act like it. If not, just say so, give me my money and I will be out of here.

Sigh.

I'm tired of crying. Not that I'm a faucet, but I've cried more in the last two days than I have in the last two months!