She knew I would be there at 8. i gave her 2 hours of time. She was sitting with friends of mine who aren't real happy with her, but they sat with them because they didn't know anyone else. Made her uncomfortable.
Not sure if she was uncomfortable or not, not sure about anything, All I know is i did what I did. I did not run and hide, I sat at the bar with my entorage all around me. Trust me, it must have looked impressive. But who cares, its over, it happened...whatever...
I feel I am doing good and my daughters and my son reinforce it all the time. I am very glad they see it, they see my strength and my resilience. I told them what happened, in case she decides to tell the story and pepper it. they told me they were proud of me for going in, not making a scene and enjoying myself, i had every right.
Yeah, i sneak back into the problem every now and then, but it does get less and less. And your right, when I leave it alone I do feel better. I pray hard for my strength, I ask Him every night to give me more. It was very difficult for me last night, to see thenm together was brutal to say the least. but, its over, it happened, its in the past....Thanks for the pep talk, you make my eyes water when you post, mostly happy, especially when I feel your suport through your words, good night and I will post you tomrrow. Oh by the way, Day10, I willl not let this interrupt my darkness, I was still very dark to her, so I don't feel I have to start over...
