Thats a fact. did something yesterday that I never thought I'd do. Went tot he Birthday party and she was there with him. she had text me and said she would be gone by 7 and I said I would arrive at 8. I showed up, and she was still there. I walked past her and him went to the bar, sat down ordered a beer and watched 20 minutes of hockey before she left. No hello goodbye or drop deads. Prior to this, I would have just left and that would have been that. I never looked at her or him. I got through the toughest thing I have had to do, show up someplace they were at.
What is working for me now is to remember everything that happens, happened, its over move forward. Being dark works for me. Concentrating on my life, works for me. I am still married, I still love her and i don't want to lose her. God gives me strength to be happy now, every day. i find the good in everything, especially the negatives. I laugh a little easier, cry a lot less, and don't dwell on her return. God will show me His plan someday, its just not today...thanks, I have to do this, I am doing this and you are 100% correct, I have too....
