Hang in there JD, "the ocean is just over the next mountain". Excuse me, I used that phrase when my kids were young and we were driving to the beach. They asked me every 5 minutes "are we there yet" so I adopted this phrase for fun - it was a few years before they realized that there weren't any mountains on the way to the beach. Trying to light up. You will get there when you do.
Meantime, I had a rough weekend, and today he really let me have it when I was not responding. You can catch up on my thread for details. Figured something out. I think I know what works and what doesn't work now.