Most Difficult Time of My Life

[Still Waters]

I am tormented by my thoughts and her actions. I can barely function. Ate 1 time yesterday, slept 3 hours. Can't concentrate on anything else.

I was there too, man. A couple months ago I was getting maybe 4 hours of sleep, ate hardly anything, was always tired, couldn't concentrate on anything. I want you to know that this will pass. It will take time, but things will get better for you. Time is your friend in all this.

You need to try to keep yourself as busy as possible. Get out of the house and go to the gym or hang out with friends. Just don't sit around alone thinking about your W. That will only make things worse.

I am so lost and feel so alone. Unsure of what to do.

While it is true that ultimately you are alone in this battle, you do have support from your family, friends, and even people on this board. But the weight of all this does fall onto your shoulders. So what can you do about it? Make yourself strong so that you can handle anything. And that starts with physical strength. Do not underestimate the power of working out every day. You WILL start to feel better after a few weeks of that. In addition to working out I also starting taking martial arts classes. It's very empowering to whip your body into great shape while learning how to defend yourself.

As for strengthening your mind, reading books like No More Mr. Nice Guy, Hold Onto Your N.U.T.S, and The Way of the Superior Man, are a good place to start.