Most Difficult Time of My Life

[Kokopelli]

I don't know how to anymore. I thought I was making progress, but everyday she is colder and colder. She just texted me to ask if I want to do lunch together. WTF? Why is she doing this to me? I found that she was on Fredericks of Hollywood in her browser history. I know that wasn't for me, I am beginning to go crazy here. I hear you Song. I want to fight so hard for our M. I am tormented by my thoughts and her actions. I can barely function. Ate 1 time yesterday, slept 3 hours. Can't concentrate on anything else.

Staying here I'm unsure about. I think moving will help me detach and begin to move on. Although deep down, I'm hoping for the jolt for her. She seems to become meaner to me the longer I stay here. She's pushing me to leave so hard. I am so lost and feel so alone. Unsure of what to do.