alien invasion II

[hoosiermama]

The bottom keeps getting lower and lower--just when I think I've hit it, I discover there's yet a lower point.

I was about halfway toward having enough funds to re-connect my gas (altho I didn't know when I'd be able to come up with the rest). And last night I worked at a banquet hall and probably earned enough to get my daughter the glasses she's needed since the beginning of the school year. So I was feeling pretty good; sore and tired!--but still pretty good. Then I noticed an envelope on my front door this morning. Being taken to small claims court to pay a medical bill from 2 years ago. Yes, I've talked with them from time to time, just like the gas company. And just like the gas company, they've been inflexible in spite of my circumstances. So this will take just exactly the amount I have saved toward my gas bill.

I am pretty much at the point of despair. I cannot seem to get ahead; I can't even seem to stay even at this point. Still waiting to hear from my mortgage company about foreclosure; hopefully I have been able to negotiate a forebearance. Most of these issues stem from receiving little to no child support for the first 6 months after H left; if I could just get caught up I make enough money to keep going. But I don't think I'll ever be able to get caught up, no matter what I do. And as a school nurse, I don't even know what I'm going to do for work this summer; submitting applications but haven't heard back yet from even one nurse recruiter.

Just journalling here, processing this and trying not to become so depressed that I get paralyzed.