Just keep swimming...PH #5

[pearlharbr]

Ok, this day is just getting worse. More tears and sadness and wondering why. Sigh.

Now I just realized that it's cold in the house when it shouldn't be. The furnace isn't on but the thermostats know it should be. So do I: 1)call xBF to come over and take a look at it, 2)just freeze for a day to see if it will right itself, or 3)call a repair guy?

Grr. Of course the house is a wreck and I have a mountain of laundry to do.

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Have you checked the circuit breaker?

[pearlharbr]

Nothing was tripped. I think the pilot light is out. I know the furnace guy showed me how to do it, but that was 1.5 years ago and of course I can't remember. I'll try to Google it.

Unfortunately I already texted xBF about coming over later. He asked when but I haven't replied yet. Fingers crossed I can do this myself!

[pearlharbr]

Cannot figure it out so xBF will have to come by.

Hopefully this will not set me back. Will plan on being out of the house but dressed to kill in case he is early. Cleaning the house and doing laundry now. Thinking of running to the store to get fresh flowers.

[silvagod]

Pearl,

I know how you feel, it's things like the cold and furnace problems that seem to make it worse. However, see it as an opportunity to embrace heat with renewed passion when it returns (in both senses of the phrase!!) Everything is for a reason, even if it is to make the 'new' stuff more appetising

Oh and btw, I have had the same thoughts as you (but regarding an OM and BFF...I would NOT be surprised at ANY thoughts that come from these sitchs.

[JDOllie]

Pearl,
I'm sorry for your bad day! I seriously think that if you don't have days like that you are either consumed by anger, or don't have any feelings or a heart.

I have started making plans for three for this summer, and every plan is a stab in the heart.

If he does come to do the furnace, I personally would be there, and make sure you watch how he does so you don't have to call him back again! Then say thanks, and kick him out the door. Offer him $20.

[Tawnya]

LOLOL..in monopoly money maybe

Tawnya

[Silver Fox]

Pearl,

Hope you are all warm and cozy by now.

[pearlharbr]

Well, here's what happened. I put on a new outfit, did my nails and left the polish out so he would know I did my nails. Went over to the sports bar for dinner, it was dead. That's fine, I ate, chatted with the manager who likes me, and read the paper. After two hours I decided it was ok to go home. Manager said he wanted me to come back so he paid my bill for me. "And yes, I am flirting with you." LOL!

Got back to a cold house. Note from xBF: something is wrong with the pilot light. It was relit but went out again and he couldn't get it to relight. Need to call furnace repair tomorrow. So I tried to find the paperwork for the last time we had it serviced, last year when we bought the house. Can't find the receipt, also can't find any paperwork relating to the purchase of the house.

So I called xBF to see if he had it. He has the house paperwork "for taxes" but nothing on the furnace. I said thanks and hung up.

That was the first time we've spoken since freedom day.

Back to the emotional stuff...

Again I came homem and was disappointed and sad that he didn't take the opportunity to leave me flowers or something else, didn't wait for me to come back. I guess I just thought he would have done something by now. I'm sad and angry that he came back into my life, made me pause, and now nothing. He's just jerking me around yet again and I'm tired of it.

I just want to shake him or slap him and ask him what his problem is. If he wants a second chance then he should man up and act like it. If not, just say so, give me my money and I will be out of here.

Sigh.

I'm tired of crying. Not that I'm a faucet, but I've cried more in the last two days than I have in the last two months!

[Puppy Dog Tails]

He still hasn't given you the money???