Mr. L, It sounds like you are getting really good at this. I wish I could organize everything like you do....really think it out logically and just move forward. I'm so proud of you and thanks for the insight. I think it's beyond that.
Kassie and Mr. L, Basically my H is immature. He seems to want to be a single man with as few responsibilities as possible. He did tell me to stay at our place but only after some prodding. And then he got home at 2:45am. He was so distant and really disrespectful to me. I pushed a little too hard. I told him that maybe we need to move forward with the D. He needs to file. The problem we have now, or his problem anyways, my blessing oddly enough is that we can't afford to divorce. We really can't afford two households. But he said OK, if the county will take a credit card he's going to file soon and I told him to get his own insurance and to serve me at the place I'm staying. He told me today that maybe we should just take a break before we do/say something we'll regret. The girlfriend I'm staying with....her H is very good friends with my H. As a matter of fact, they are playing golf together today as they OFTEN do. My girlfriend's H told her that for the last month he has wanted to tell me to give up. She finally pinned him down as to why. He said that my H often says things now like "....my soon to be ex wife...." And things like that and has been for the last month or so. I was so hopeful we were doing well and on the road to where we could create something new and wonderful, but I've been so wrong...so blind, so accomodating to him. My H has yet to have a whole weekend by himself with our S because I've jumped in to help because....I don't even have any good reasons for doing that. I'm so upset. I really truly am starting to feel we are at the end. I don't feel like I can turn this around anymore. Kassie, my thread is in Walk Away Spouse under "I moved here from MLC." Sorry to hi-jack here Mr. Lost, but I know you understand. Thanks for letting me cry here. It's been really really dark. I've even lost it in front of my S, which I can't stand myself for. How do I stop this? I've been so so stupid. So emotional.
