Gosh this situation sounds SO familiar. I (pretty much) had this exact same situation several years ago. Since then, I keep all of my self-help books hidden.
I also was very anxious, once my H found one of the books I was reading. He ranted for a couple of days about it .. wanting me to "justify" how I could read something like that. I tried to and it just made "things" worse.
This was before I considered my H an alcoholic .. too! My fear of confrontation (with H) has always been so that I will do anything to avoid it. (I go through stages with this, I guess.) Anyways .. that is why I now keep all of those books hidden.
Hoping to find you continuing to be strong and that things are better for you today ..
