"I don't wanna spend my life jaded, waiting...

[theotherhalf]

Can't you see it isn't you he wants it is just sex.

naej, I do see, and have almost said this to him a couple times. But I am trying to not tell him how he feels/thinks.

While I was talking to him his BIL came and was drunk too. I heard the word #&%% (nearby town where OW lives) and H said I'll talk to later ok. I figured he'd call back but he didn't. So I don't know how his evening ended up. Don't care. I went to bed.

Again, not answering the phone when he calls is a tough one for me. I really get ticked when he won't answer my calls so I feel I have to answer his.

Problem for me is that I read too much into EVERYTHING. He's got me "wondering". Is he calling me because him and OW are not talking/seeing each other? Is he calling me because he is missing me and when he is drunk he cannot hold his composure? Is he calling me because he is seeing if I am home and it's clear for him to be with OW? Is he calling OW too? Is it bugging him that I am resisting?