What's next???? The adventure continues!!!

[AFWAW]

Hey Mel,
Yeah, I'm ok. I think I'm past the shock finally. I miss her still but don't want her back if she thinks I'm a dick. She can't respect me if she thinks that. I'm not giving up but I really, really think it's over. All I see is a hard, cold woman who wants nothing to do with me anymore. If it wasn't for my daughter, she would probably never talk to me again. And I'm not just saying that. If you could see the hate in her face, hear the hate in her voice. Such bitterness--to tell me that she should have left me in 1995--wow. Even if she does come back, I'm always going to be thinking she doesn't want to be with me. For God's sake--it's 2009. Why the freak would you hang out for that long?

Again, I'm ok but I still think there isn't much hope, really. My daughter said to me a little while ago--I'm glad you're finally getting it. I said, what are you talking about? She said how mommy really is--she's mean. Wow--smart girl.

Sorry to hear about your drama but you know that's the type of thing that draws folks closer together so you never know this might be the thing that gets you two back together.

I think you are a lot stronger than you think and it's always easier to look at someone elses sitch and analyze cause it's not personal. If it's yours then it's personal.