What's next???? The adventure continues!!!

[AFWAW]

Wow, what a day. Just got home from the movies and eating out w/ the wife and daughter. Wife was very pleasant out but when we got back to the house when gathering more things to take to her apartment she started on my about the phone call I made the other day. Apparently, the person I called made some calls of his own and it got back to the wife. She was highly pissed and told me that this was the type of BS that had made her want to leave in the first place. She said we are never getting back together and you just need to get over and quit being a baby. She said I should have left your ass in 1995 when I orginally wanted to. I said why didn't you then? Why would you lie to me for years? She said I don't know. I guess because D13 was born. She said I can't stand the way you've treated me and things you've said. Ok, have I said some things and not treated her well--that could be argued either way. Could I have done better--you bet, both of us could have. Was I immature?--yep. Have I matured?--yep The thing is she seems to have hit a point where she can take no.

I guess the big difference is I am willing to work on this and she is not. Another thing, because she was so mean about it I felt less emotional. I don't feel like crying, moping, nothing. I just feel empty and betrayed. What a cold, hard woman. I don't know what the future holds for me and my daughter but I know if my wife won't accept my love and all I have to offer then I will find a woman who will. It's just amazing to me how she is letting her anger rule her life and giving up so much for it. Uggggghhhhhhhhh....