Hmm what i think is it is regret, denial, shame...all that..WITHOUT the willingness to admit any wrong doing..blame blame blame.
I too have gotten so many "empty" answers.
I am with you trusting. Isaiah 43 --Forget about whats happened, dont keep goign over old history. Be alert, bet present. I AM about to do something brand new. It is burstin gout..dont you see it? (the message)
deuteronomy 30 - i set before you two choices..life and death.....what will we choose?
The choices we make for US are just that for US. We have come so far-- and i feel we finally really understand teh DB principles. it IS about letting go, finding YOURSELF and realizing that you can't do anything... WHEN and IF they turn then you (we) are at a place of a healed heart---where IF it happens we can receive them. AND IF IT DOESNT happen. If they dont turn... then we have grown.
Hugs and hugs and hugs to you...vent all you want!!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again