True Love or True Fog? Part II - The Fertile Void

[Silver Fox]

Thanks Tawyna, Pearl, Silva, WIT, Kassie,

My Prime Directive for the next two weeks is: PREPARE FOR MEDIATION

1. I will finish the Financial Declaration Form (5 pages long) and gather copies of everything it requires: mortgage papers, insurance, cars, etc.
2. I will have copies of H's credit card bills (the ones that came to the house before he realized duh, I shouldn't let her see those).
3. I will have copies of those credit card monthly payments he's making from our joint bank account ($2,200 so far).
4. I will have copies of cell phone bills with call after call after call to OW - hundreds of text messages too.
5. I will have PHOTOGRAPHS of the house and all the unfinished projects he left.
6. And finally, I will have a list of my terms which I'm working on now and will share later.

I will have all this paperwork in separate, labeled folders carried in a beautiful leather briefcase.

I'm also in the process of planning the most appropriate outfit.

And, a friend of mine is helping me practice various calm, assertive responses to anything H or his L might throw out.

In other words, I'm preparing for the performance of my life. My H will not see the broken, sad W of the past 2 years. It will be a complete 180 for me. When he sees me sitting there looking good, with my folders, and my game face on I want two words to go through his fogged out brain - "Holy Crap".