Just journaling..

Yesterday was really good. I still feel that my W is "holding out" what I mean is that she is not letting herself go with her feelings. I get so many mixed messages. Last night we went out to Chinese food again and we brought our son with us this time. She poured me tea. (Something she never did before). The other day I mentioned something about ovaltine and how I have not had it in years. When she went shopping she bought some.
But today when I was leavening I went up to her and gave her a kiss and said "I love you" and she did not say anything.
I started taking the Wellbutrin on Wednesday. I am on my first day of full dose.(300mg) . My quit smoking date is Monday. I do not feel any different taking this drug but I am thinking that I can not trust my feelings right now. Not with just the drug but also with the quitting smoking "stress" so I am thinking about just taking care of Doc right now and try not to pay any attention to my emotions.
I have come so far I know.. Next month April 12th it will be two years since this started. \:\(

And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know