Not at all, in fact she has made more effort in the last month than I have seen in any month since we have been married.
It is somehow related to letting go of being emotionally tied to her. I almost feel like I could do better? Does that make any sense? D;
Actually...now I dig a little deeper, there is some resentment on my part. It is now not that she doesn't ML, but that it is just mercy sex. She is never really into it, and it's always "okay if we must", next "get it over with", and she never lays a hand on me (literally). It always is and has been me doing everything. I feel like she is a selfish lover, and that she sees it as "I am doing him a favor by letting him touch me".
I think maybe I have changed and my standards have risen. We ML three times last month, and now I am bored with it, it is always the same. D:
Maybe this is a natural stage I need to go through, but it is bothering me. Like a nagging feeling I have. I used to think about her and get hot and bothered, now I just feel "meh".
What gives? Despite my frustration, I actually LIKE that I am HD. I don't want that to go away.
Spellfire aka Mike
"Women do not like controlling men. They respect and are attracted to men who control themselves. They ultimately are repelled by men who allow themselves to be controlled." -S&A
