How's your weekeknd? I'm sorry it's so rough right now. I know the feeling of looking for hope & getting slapped by reality. The back & forth is painful!
A few things that helped me: emotional distance from my H, finally didn't take anything he said personal (even though it can still hurt), stopped looking for immediate improvement and realized it will take time, surrendered my M to God, and prayed a lot!
I think I finally got to a point where I had to give it all to God for my own sanity & health and I've felt a lot better ever since. There are still a lot of hard times but nothing like before. I try when I do get really upset to pray or read the bible and I am uplifted. Otherwise I will just continue to cry and be upset.
We are all here for you. I hope you have a great weekend :-)
Me:28, first M H: 33, second M Married: 08/08 Bomb: 10/08 H filed D and deployed: 12/08 Served: 04/09 I deploy: 07/09 Hearing date: 08/09
