Wow I can not believe what just happened to my head. I thought I was so done with all this drama. I have wanted nothing to do with her for a while now. Been living my life accepting that it was over.
So since we will be moving soon I have been trying to go through stuff and through out as much crap as possible. So I am cleaning out the filing cabinet in the garage and I come across 3 cards she gave me when we were first dating. And some pics.
I almost had a real bad panic attack. Me! I never have had a panic attack. WTF Where did these feelings come from. I want them gone! I want them gone now. Its not fair that I have this in my head again. All the hurt just came back!!!!!! I just want to scream! I want to scream at her!! This sucks. I was moving on. I did not want her back. Now I got these feelings I dont want. Just pisses me off.
Me 41 W 44 Together 7 years Married 6 Bomb Dec 2 08
