Separated but keeping the Faith

[jaguilar]

Thanks, I appreciate you guys. She's been calling a lot this week. I've been very nice but over doing it. It's just hard trying to prepare yourself for divorce and the possibility that she may come back home. With my work hours, I can only see the kids on the weekends. It used to be ard because my mind would wonder and I would start to get myself going, who is she with, what is she doing. I'm getting that part of this ugliness inder control.

I did retain a lawyer back in ay of 08. I only did it becasue she told she had a lawyer since 11/07. When I gave her the attorneys card, she was floored. I ahven't spoken to the attorney since then. Well this past week, I fired the attorney. I told my wife a month ago that I was not filing for divorce, had no intentions of doing it. Personally, I can't work on myself and hope she comes back to me and still work with an attorney, to me that just doesn't sound right. I've been up front and honest with her but yet, still playing it close to the vest. I don't know maybe a dumb move, but it's wehat I feel in my heart.

So right about now, I start getting down on myself. So it's time I go for a run. I always think about Forrest Gump, "I just started running." LOL - makes me feel good and too tired to worry about anything else. My goal is to run a marathon in November.

Thanks again friends...