Devestated

[SoCo]

Well, new bomb. I found out from my 3yo d that h took her somewhere with the ow. Yep. OW confirmed, and he exposed our 3 year old to her. We are still married, only seperated 2 months, and he is parading my child in front of his new girlfriend. I found this out because he took my d from my son's baseball practice and insisted on taking her "to the park." I told him I didn't think it was a good idea, because son might feel left out, but h insisted. A couple of days later, my d tells me about the woman daddy was talking to at the park. I let it go thinking it could be anyone. Well, a couple of days later she tells me with a confused look on her face, that "Daddy loves his friend, but he loves you too mommy." I almost blew a gasket. I called and confronted him and at first he tried to lie. He said it was another kid, blah,blah. I called him on it and he admitted it. We had a huge arguement and he pretty much said he would take them around whoever he wanted to and it was none of my buisness. I was in total shock and just horrified. How dare he do that to our kids. He's lucky my s hasn't found out yet. He's old enough to really understand.

This has made up my mind that it is really over. I feel that he has NO morals or honor. If you love your kids, you don't emotionally hurt them by introducing them to your new girlfriend while still married to their mom. They are just now getting used to the idea of us not living all together. I am just totally disgusted by his behavior and know that I will not ever respect or love him again. I saw a lawyer yesterday. I feel that it is time and has gone beyond where it can be fixed. It just breaks my heart. Every time I look at information about child custody, the stuff involved in the divorce, etc. I literally get sick to my stomach. I need strength to not cry and throw up while we are sorting through the d process. I am so sad.