Thank you for your kind words and empathy. When I have company I seem to forget my sorrow for a while.
The worst time for me are the nights just before getting to sleep. Then a lot of stuff is suddenly on my mind and sometimes I just cannot fall asleep. I keep thinking that I would rather be with H than getting to know a total stranger, although it is quite fun to meet so many different people. But meeting someone and living with somebody are two totally different things.
I was quite ok this evening since I went out with one of my GFs. We went to a place where they have live music on Fridays. We were there once before but tonight the music was just fantastic. The band played music from the 70s and 80s such as Deep Purple, Pink Floid etc.
There were also lots of men on their own and THREE flirted with me. I tried to flirt back. One of them even waved goodbye! It was fun and it made me feel quite good. Lately I keep looking in the mirror and thinking that I have aged a lot since H left.
Anyway, I am looking forward to meeting the "hiker" tomorrow.
