alien invasion II

[BeingMe]

Yes, I know the feeling of being told how strong I am, how courageous. It's kind/sweet of friends and family to see that in me, but really, I am just stubborn. I don't feel strong ... I feel weak, and dependent, and frustrated. But, mostly, stubborn.

I think it's okay to feel weak (even necessary), it's fine to feel sad at the turn your life has taken. I disagree, somewhat, that it's been turned upside down ... it probably feels that way, but you are just a little disoriented, which is normal when there is such extreme changes in your life. Still, farbeit for me to judge your feelings and the actions you should take (what works for one, could be catastrophic for another). I can only go by what my experience is and hope there is some small nugget of hope you can take away from it. We all feel differently, and our journeys in life diverse, and sometimes we step out onto the same station and go, "WTF is going on here, that last station sucked! And I seem to have taken the wrong train!"

I know by my own experience and that of many others shows that "nothing stays the same". This too shall pass! Just take it one day at a time, even one hour at a time.

Okay, I guess I am waxing far too philosophical these days. Just be kind to yourself, give yourself a break even if others aren't ... we all care about you.