Walk Away German Wife (WAGW)

[PortlandDad]

My W called me again this morning: she is getting predictable again! She was over at her moms apartment to get on the internet. She sent me a quick e-mail to let me know that she had received the e-mail that I sent her a few days ago. My e-mail to her was basically thanking her for a wonderful anniversary evening (Mar 1st) and I did get a little explicit with her about how much I enjoyed the evening with her. It might have been a backslide a bit, but it was also a 180 for me because I have never really been very sexually adventurous with her before.

She said, "Wow, your e-mail sounds like you are writing to a whore! :)" I sent her an e-mail back and apologized for sending it if she was offended, but I also left open the possibility of sending more like it if she wanted. No sooner had I sent that e-mail than the phone rang. She wanted to know if I had read my S13's MySpace status lately. I confessed that I had. His status was, "I HATE THE WORLD". I told her that we had just had our first family counseling session and that he and I would be going back on Monday and Tuesday. Then she started getting mad. She wanted to know why she hadn't been told about the C and if we were trying to keep it a secret from her. I told her no, it wasn't a secret and that I would disclose everything that came up with her.

She then flipped the whole thing around into a condemnation of her. She asked if I had told the C that she was a good W, and devoted mom, etc. I reminded her that C was to help the kids and me, not to prop her up in the eyes of the Dr. She got miffed at that, but whatever. She wanted to know everything that was said and who said it. I told her everything that I remembered, but I'm sure I overlooked a few things. By the time I had finished telling her what had happened, she was significantly calmer. During the whole call I could tell that the guilt is really eating away at her.

The she wanted to talk about our D12 and S17. I explained that they were doing fine and that D17 was going to be applying for a job today. She seemed happy with that news. She told me to have him call her later as she was about to step out to take the dog for a walk; which I have come to know as code for "I need to go out and call my BF on my cell and tell him the news".

Oh well. I'm not dwelling on the negatives; my kids need me even if she doesn't right now. She will come around, and thanks to the wonderful advice and help I've received here, I'm going to be better whether or not she comes back.

God bless!