Be strong, big guy. Most of us here know the desperation that you are feeling. Just make sure that you only express that desperation here: to your W you need to be happy, confident, and acting "as if" everything was fine. In time, you shouldn't need to act, it will be real.
I'm praying for both of our families.
Me40 WAW37 M18 T20 S18,14 D13 EA Bomb 6/08 Sep 11/20/08 Ret 08/09 Sep/Filed 11/09