What's next???? The adventure continues!!!

[AFWAW]

Ok, my calm didn't last long. I have an appointment downtown w/ my counselor this afternoon so I had to leave work early. Had to drive past my wife's building and felt my emotions coming on again. I thought about my daughter and how she felt last night and about how I feel and it came again in a big rush. I'll talk it over w/ my counselor. I just wish my wife had the courage to first forgive and then try to make this work. I know it took a lot of courage for her to walk away but it will take much more for her to come back. If she could only read my mind, she would know how I feel and how much I care for her. I fear this is going to get worse very quickly with the conversation my wife will have with my D13 tonight. I am so weary. I just want it to be better and to be able to hold my wife.