First, I automate processes in research labs of pharmaceutical companies, drug discover labs within universities, and government labs. (whoa!)
You know, it's funny... initially, after "the bomb" I tried a few times to reach out to him, with NO LUCK. But, at the time, I was doing everything as wrong as you can do it (DB'ing wise) Since then, we've had a few pretty serious set-backs, and that's what led me here. I am happy about the results of how far we've come (since I started DB'ing), but have come to realize that I feel paralyzed to reach out to him physically. I'm so afraid of the rejection, and feel like our "intimacy" is becoming a more distant and distant memory. It's heartbreaking.
Positive signals I get from lately... seeking me out when he's home, a different, more loving tone when he talks to me, and a certain "way" he talks to me when he feels good about me/us. And, we have always kissed and hugged hello and goodbye (except for a two week time prior prior to and right after I started DB'ing), however, I do notice he now seeks me out when he gets home to hug and kiss me hello, instead of yelling hi, or saying it across the room, and going to see the kids.
I used to be confident, but feel like it's pretty shattered by now. How to find it again? That's the question.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
